The Realization of Self Love

 It took me about 45 days to do 24 workouts of chloe ting. i am so so proud of myself.  I have developed a system a routine that I love and I can stick to! Chloe ting at night time just feels so good even if it hurts so bad.  I am addicted to her workouts now and I can see myself going the long run with this challenge because it pushes me just enough and I have it set into a daily habit now. Worth the full 45 days it took to get here!  today i can't help but see manifestation as a fitness challenge. working day by day to get real results.  and maybe day to day if you are looking too closely you can't see the results, but you can feel it. eventually you start to see it to!  i'm in my i'm starting to see it phase! and it feels good.  one of the things that has changed for me specifically on this challenge but within the last 7 days particularly is keeping me away from checking the 3D which i thought I would never really be able to escape that cycle but l...

  Everyday I remind myself that its the BORING things that bring me gold. And one of the boring things that I've been doing is keeping myself from checking tiktok notifications.  Sometime exciting, some times nerve wrackig.. tiktok comments can be a lot of excitement ...and by taking away my constant checking.. things have become a lot better for me.  I keep thinking and hesitating about when I should check again, but all that tells me is that i'm not ready to!  Its truly not facing the 3D or what would some say? Ignoring the 3D.. and it is working for me on the back end because I have so much more momentum to just post my creative ideas.  I realize checking commments slows me down... i start to react to the comments rather than the intentions I had set already.  By keeping myself from checking, i've lost a lot of that desperation and people pleasing frequency. I have gained more insight on what it looks like for me to SELF TRUST and to post on my own creat...

 today i unlocked a REALITY that I want to create.. one where a woman changes herself so that the men around her change for the better too... so i'm krena the princess a secret agent who makes millions off her music and art and creativity right but what she really is is a detective and a scientist creating formulas to reinforce a new reality to the old dissolving one... our first assignment in our old dissolving reality is facing the crisis of women who are in enmeshed relationshipswith men who are enmeshed with their mothers approval and therefore these men are good at puting up a very sexual and mysterious appearance but once they get close they exhibit the traits of both toxic parents.the powerless/helpless and weak mother and their hurt ego control father if they embody their mother which they will they will favor their mother because thats whom they wanted to defend or they wanted to help... their hearts are open still to the mothers powerlessness and her cunning way of being ...

 20 ways I can make $10K/ Month  1 million streams a month on my songs  4-5 youtube videos that average $2K each  selling products on TIKTOK shop  sell 2000 worksheets a month at $5  sell 2000 udemy courses a month at their discounted rate  sell 213 curly hair photo books for $47  sell 500 vinyls at $20  live show performance 500 audience members at $20 ticket prices  7 rental properties with $1500 rent  333 customers to my fitness studio at $30 single classes  sync royalties  guest performer at major celebrities performances  get paid to film minky queen, natural hair tiktoks in different cities (city brand deal) brand deals -- getting paid to use lipstick products..hair products.... fashion etc.  netflix streaming for a major film/music theater film/documentary project investor of businesses / black businesses in the urban areas that help the community  stock investor  sell 2000 vocal stems at $5...

 EVERYDAY i am waking up in the last days before my dream life happens. I see the things in my reality and I don't let them bother me as much.. I am focusing on my wellbeing and its a life long commitment. Being sober is a new experience... it can be more challenging to ignore reality when it triggers you... i find my mind wandering off into old wild negative thoughts and I just gracefully bring her back.  These next two weeks i'm buckling down on my dream home manifestation and making $10K/month manifesting from the source of being that i've been really uncovering... 1. Manifesting from the knowing and remembering that I have it.. 2. Manifesting in the living of it ... not the waiting 3. I am re-committing to having 10k robotic affirmations complete... this means really doing the boring stuff and buckling down and affirming for hours a day.  4. Acting and being in my reality as if I am getting ready for the changes.  5. Interacting with my home and my money as I am ...

 Today is the final day of my 14 day manifestation challenge.  Monday I spent the whole day planning my strategies.  And Tuesday, I woke up with the worst pain in my throat. Yesterday, I was confronted with the me that is changing... I realized my frustrations ... my old frustrations where reflecting the pain in my throat. I found that my husband was able to be more supportive than normal and that really helped.  I realized that everything is happening for me and it was essential to face my inner frustrations mainly because I can trust myself to tend to my emotional needs.  Its a celebration because I do not need anyone in order to feel better, but its nice when people and support are around and this is what I got from having to have an immersive experience with my throat pain.  This morning I realized that i haven't smoked, drank coffee and can barely eat...all 3 of these things are things I could complain about but what it showed me is these are the 3 thi...

 I feel my manifestations coming closer...  the new idea that has triumphed for me is Taylor Coates saying that Manifestation is a reminder not a tool to get it. THIS IS A GAME CHANGER...  this week so many amazing things happened it really was the most amazing week of my life in a long time because it was coming from me in the belief and BEING state of it being TRUE.  I had a successful weekend for my daughters birthday. I was so proud of myself to treat my family to a luxury / hotel experience where we can remind ourselves that our lives are more expanded than we can dream!  IT WAS AMAZING seeing my mother let loose at the amusement park and we had so much fun!  My sister is looking even more healthier of mind and spirit than ever!  My daughter is emerging out of her shell and becoming her true confident self.  one of my astrology videos blew up to 8K and counting! giving me a new passive income stream!  I literally had someone recognize me...

 what is it like to be $300 dollars richer everyday? if $300 was always deposited in your account.... i can't believe how easy it is to live life now i can't believe i had been depriving myself of such a glorious life.  omg I have so much money now and i relax into my life as i am worthy of it this whole time  every time i post large amounts of money are deposited into my account this is unbelieveable i can't believe how easy it was to lock into a formula that would produce lavish and steady results  i trusted my intuition and it lead to my fortune  i trust myself with everything now because I have the value and power in the palm of my hands  it feels good to not need anything from anyone but to have them. around anyway  it feels good to buy anything i want and even if i overspent there is nothing to worry about 

 Today I can feel the wobble dissolving. I can feel me winning and others winning too. I can see me winning and others winning too.  I'm so grateful so happy and so excited that my house is coming. I am so thankful that my house is almost here. Its closer than I think and i love that for me.  It is done! These are the final days before I move into my new home! I am gearing up to be planning my space and soaking in my new bathtub.  It is so easy to do everything and flow now. It is so easy to take care of myself and to trust in my actions. It is so easy to enjoy each day and watch how reality unfolds for me.  I love how much space i have to cook and to enjoy my kitchen. I love how MUCH I LOVE MYSELF to where I CAN TRUST ALL THAT IS GOOD FOR ME and discern what isn't and fix it immediately.  I love how much abundance is sitting around me and enjoying me using it. I love being in my own space and having the emotional and mental support that I need everyday. I ...

 Support is coming to me. Really good and reliable support. As well as my own time and space is coming to me, in the meantime I am working on being the best me and have no time to dwell on what or who is lacking

 I am so grateful I am living in my new mansion like home. It is so big but its still small enough for me to enjoy it. It is the perfect space for me and my family and i'm elated!  It was so easy getting this beautiful place. I can't believe how it easy it was!  It was so easy making the money to get this place, I can't believe easy it was! My life is so much different now because I really have the space to be me. My life is so much different now because i've minimilized on the things I need and I don't have a lot of clutter.  Im not on the internet or social media as much because I don't need the advice as much anymore. I spent quiet times meditation, doing yoga, and fitnesss on my back porch.  I enjoy singing in my backyard and working on my music in my beautiful home studio. I easily take my daughter to school and she is so much more secure and happy now. 

 Yesterday was a great day. I felt myself expanding as I was able to have a wonderful moment with my daughter doing some tennis activities. It was actually very enjoyable to do this and I even called it "TENNIS CAMP" in which I was truly enjoying the idea that I can make these kinds of activities days with her. Then we went swimming in the Onondaga Park Pool and i got to tell you I had a moment when I was like..."I am living the best life" kind of idea... and I even felt like I was Brendan Fallis for a minute.  I've come to grow and expand in seeing the beauty of Syracuse. I've come to be curious about all of the places in the world that have these beautiful experiences that I can be apart of.  Being able to simply enjoy myself... not just simply but genuinely. It wasn't forced.. it was Bliss and I just know that I am setting my life up to experience this daily. It makes me happy so much to know that that is what I am doing. And when things start to both...

 I woke up today realizing that I am living in my dream life and all the things I want are unfolding rapidly... This is why when something throws me off.. it actually is a sign that I am on my way. It is a sign to confront it as the person I am today and to do something powerful with it.  I am seeing how I've detached healthfully from my tiktok, this is the next step the new step i'm in... this is proof that I am advancing.  I am creating an even healthier relationship to tiktok than I was before in which I can hold space for my old accomplishments and have space for all of my new endeavors.  I realize that not everything requires a response and that is okay.  I realize that I am unlocking the blocks that kept me resistant to expanding my youtube channel, thinking i had to do it only one way and realizing i'm no longer having to pinch myself off.. because some of the greats and the people I look to have done it OR would do it if they were in my position.  I...

 Today, i could almost feel myself living and moving inside of my new home.  I just know it is mine i felt it many times today. I found the perfect place to be my home in Syracuse, and I am enjoying the unfolding of it happening.  Today's contrast showed me that there is so much things to prep to be moving into my new home. One of those things is ...  respecting my self,  respect of my life and  respect of my space. It all makes sense now cause it means that I am really LIVING.  I'm so grateful that I can see now that I was on the spectrum of LIVING vs WAITING for it to....????... Today was an epiphany of great news because this is an intrinsic shift in my way of BEING.  It doubles down on why its important to take care of yourself... because if you aren't then somewhere inside of you.. you have given up ...  and maybe even given up on life.  Today I got back into my grow with jo workout as if I never left.  I feel deep EMPATHY for ...

 this is slowly becoming a manifesting journey to document now...  my new affirmation to help me get back on track and also not to wobble when i start to fall into pitfalls...  "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is coming to me now, in the meantime i'm too busy being the best me to notice anything or anybodys absence" "all i want is...