The Realization of Self Love

Day 2 of Chloe Ting Challenge, 2/60 ish days  I've learned over the past week the importance of not caring.  to CARE and when to CARE is the question.  And i have discovered in myself that there are some things that i've cared too much about.  I'm starting to think that caring about what people think as a normal basis is what creates insecurities and the feeling of not being good enough.  We are taught to care about what our parents think. With grace, we can see that our parents are only doing what they know how to do. But eventually if we do not get out of the race of pleasing our parents... we often will try to please others anyway. When it comes to me, once I stopped trying to please my parents, my need to please and to CARE ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK, only transferred to my teachers, to my boss, and eventually to my partnerships.  Anyone in authority has been granted the access of what I do and how well it pleases them.  When I see it like this, it ...

  I've begun to shift tremendously as I have aligned with my feeling better as my top priority.  There are so many real emotional things to overcome. Yesterday, It dawned on me that I've been pushing my dark feelings away so that i CAN FEEL GOOD.  The idea/ intention is well meaning. But i learned through studying gene key 55, how sometimes we are addicted to the good feelings.  Of course, we want good feelings, but then we don't acknowledge the not so good ones.  The old me... did not know her power to help herself feel better.  The new me.. has now the authority because her first job is to ensure that I feel better.  But feeling better isn't always about pushing the bad feelings to the side. Sometimes I need those meditative/alone sessions to let the feelings come up for me in a safe space.  Then, I can ask the feeling questions about why are we feeling this way.. what is the triggers and where it is coming from.  I can trust myself now to ...