The Realization of Self Love

 today i am proving to myself that i can balance both my work and my health.  i am sitting in the now of having all my old nicki fans show up and i'm seeing it happen in real time. i am now committed to working on my next original material and getting ready to really show out on a top song that is going to stream at 1 million.  i am surrendering and i believe i can.  its the moment that i'vebeen waiting for! thisacknowledgement is exactly what i'dhoped for. they are calling my rap persona name. they are giving herher flowers.  they are so proud of me to see how i stayedon the side of righteousness.i'm feeling more welcomed than ever before.this news has got mebubblingand i'mso far removed from theold me that doucted or worried iknowitsgonna happenfor mebecauseever day is a stephigher andbetterthanbefroe.  i am starting my mornings with 8:30am posts and then start my morning routines after including hitting a 20min gro with jo session to instill my cardio in...

 I am so happy to be alive. I feel connected to my father in a way I haven't in such a long time and I am so grateful to be in this space within myself.  I see more and more everyday that i AM connected to the universe and to trust and surrender it becomes so much easier.  I surrender to the ease that is what surrender is.. to let it be easy.  I am so happy to be on the frequency where I am vibrating over the doubt of who I am. It's not about being liked as much as knowing who you are. the frequency is powerful.  i'm ready to take on the game and be a spotify player.. playing streams and earning money exactly through what i love to do. i understand that i am to enjoy the journey and know i'm going to get there.. and to surrender to the universe and make it easy.  its def about me but its mainly about what i want to be to be for others. thats whats really cool. i've been focused on enjoying my life.. not using the words enjoying the journey cause there is a ...

 I'm so glad to know today i can slow down and that success will come even faster to me.  i am reminding myself to define what i want.  and then i am reminding myself that my manifestation is on its way.  LETTING GO OF CONTROL AND ENJOYING THE ROAD AND WHERE I'M CALLED TO GO CREATIVELY.  i am reminding myself that  perfection isn't better than listening to my own inner guidance and tuning into what I WANT TO DO NEXT.  as i manifest i get to correctly guide the energy like a shepherd and its flock or a potter and its clay.  as i see my manifestation today....i'm so grateful that tiktok is still here, that all my old videos are still preserved, i am grateful that i can still do remixes and make impact, i'm grateful that i proved i could go viral even after a while off, i'm grateful that i am still writing new material and I am grateful that I have all this time to create.  i am reminding myself that so much good is happening. I reminding myself...

 Everyday I can see myself having a clean space that is easy to take care of and maintain. its so easy.  Everyday I can see myself paying homage to my ancestors and ritualizing a little wine or alcohol during my week.  Everyday I can see myself checking in on my mom and my sister and other family members to insure their well being.  Everyday I can see myself connecting with my daughter on a deep level.  Everyday I can see myself connecting with my husband on a deep level.  Everyday I can see myself connecting with different friend groups.  Everyday I can see myself connecting with the divine inside of myself or outside myself. 

 It is an incredible Solar Eclipse.. The Moon takes a bite out of the Sun today in Virgo  Its a beautiful energy to begin this next manifestation cycle.  I am proud of what i was able to accomplish. I really want t hit 10K on my affirmations this time so i am focused on doing that and my annabelle hayes lifestyle worksheet!  Lets go.  1. ANNABELLE WORKSHEET - 14 DAYS - STARTS DAY 1 AGAIN  2. 10K RAP POP STAR AFFIRMATIONS - 14 DAYS - STARTS DAY 1 AGAIN  3. GRO WITH JO- 14 DAYS - NO BREAKS STARTS DAY 1 AGAIN  4. 14 THINGS TO SLEEP BETTER. STARTS DAY 1 TODAY  5. BLOG EVERYDAY THAT MY MANIFESTATION IS COMING AND ITS HERE AND I JUST NEED TO ENJOY THE RIDE AND ENJOY IT. 

 another beautiful day in the kingdom.  today i feel good about all that is happening...i am enjoying as i grow steadily... it feels good to know that i am where i once dreamed i would be. i once dreamed i'd be seen for my music and that is really happening.  i assume i'll be doing this as long as i can. and today i dropped another verse that im really proud of. even the me just a few month ago who was beating herself up over past "mistakes" is now in her dream being because i am feeling like i'm back in the game as i was before but even better. i once needed permission where today i need nothing but my inner guidance as i give myself true freedom to go for it.  i am living in the dream life i wanted for myself. it is done. 

working on my regulation today as things are skyrocketing up and there is a lot of movement on my account as this video is picking up. i'm so grateful about this video going viral at the time it is. and as the conductor turning her back on the audience I will stay focused on my plan and no one else.  i am listening clearly and today is about staying grounded as i prepare for everything to come in. I am ready and i am listening and receiving it today.  i am so grateful and i see now the adjustments that I personallly needed to overcome everything and I have arrived. 

 today i am watching this video go viral and its the good news and there is even more good news coming in... its exciting watching it grow and gain momentum... i get to be the audience to my own success.  i am so grateful for all i've done. i'm grateful for myself.. my being..my life.  i'm grateful for the universe and i'm grateful to god. i'm grateful to art and the freedom to choose art in this lifetime.  i'm so grateful for tiktok. it has been a platform to out put my demons and deal with my relationship frictions. i'm so grateful for my journey for it brought me here to want to be this kind of artist. this is exciting as i am ready now to be seen and to make my presence known today..and as i tune this frequency .. all will be coming in now.  its another dream day as i enter into the fortress where my throne sits.  today i get to watch all of my old fans make their presence known and find me.  we will soar to the heights of people's consciousness an...

 i'm ready for my dream career day  its a beautiful morning and i say wow i'm so blessed to be a participating contributor to society with my music entrepreneurship. i see so much momentum and i know today there is going to be more good news! i'm getting paid deals and its coming to me .... fenty city kitty... mink out outfit.. omg! great newsss!!! wohooo i'm going to be a savage fenty ambassador... i'm getting a video that is going viral... which is affectin my whole account to have more presence i'm learning to not be under the algorithm but on top of it  i'm learning that i was asking, adjusting, manipulating, my way with the algorithm... but now i make the algorithm work for me rather than me work for it. Now i am creating and everything i do works now.  i found a way to make money by targeting $34 a day with my astrology! this is great news cause i always have money for coffee and groceries now. 

 i LOVE writing the day in the life ofs right now so lets go ahead and combine our dream relationships with our dream day profession.   i also love my annabelle hayes challenge last night i eliminated a lot of shame in my sexual identity... again as per usual i've found more deep rooted beliefs tha made me see myself in a certain way where i wasn't the pleasre i'm just doing the pleasing. this is over.  i am now the pleasure and that is why i am pleasing wow tears...  okay lets choose a day in my life and take it slowly... in this day i want to have a meet up with my fitness girlfriend clans..so maybe we do a hiking or a walking workout together or we meet up at a fancy wine and healthy dish event. i get to dress up not too much but just enough where i can do a FIT check and I feel like i have a REAL LIFE. lol.  its a slow mornin rest day ... husband has to go to work but wakes me up for a morning breakfast at NeNe's liike Beyonce lyrics.. bust it open feed...

 In my annabelle hayes lifetsyle challenge. i got avocadoes to last me breakfast time for the next few days.. lets go.  I have completed my orientation to my work flow. I see myself as in "show mode" and then "regulation mode" so... right now work is getting ready for "show mode" in which I go off the regulation schedule of practice and rehearse and be in the schedule of performing kind of like how it was at tada!  which requires a whole new approach to how i'm going to organize my days.  so to sort it out... its a work day right...  most work days during performance mode or "show mode" will include things like... daily tasks  shopping for clothes / outfits  rehearsal for songs presentation / demeanor / staging  _______________________________________________________________ activities that i love to do :  twerking dance in the morning  makeup, film and then coffee in the morning  online shopping or in store shopping  blogging ...

 The momentum of my manifestations do not go unnoticed. I'm feeling incredible invigorating feelings lets get to these goals.  SKIN - scalp, deep itch - fungal, face mask and new facial products  ANNABELLE HAYES - workout, eat and lifestyle like ANNABELLE - WORKSHEET GRO WITH JO - stay consistent with walking workouts  DAY 4 MONEY - 7 Worksheets a day BETTER SLEEP !!! 7 - 8 HOURS  RAP AFFIRMATIONS - MINKY IS THE HOTTEST RAPPER OUT RIGHT NOW 991 dream house and pop affirmations during routines DOING IT CREATING A FILMING SHEDULE / RITUAL/ROUTINE - DAY IN LIFE OF PHOTOGRAPHER / MODEL   DOne 14 DAY NATURAL HAIRSTYLE CHALLENGE - 2 days in a row so far!  14 DAY MAKEUP ARTISTRY TRAINING  FILMING, STYLING, LIGHTING  ROTATION SCHEDULE FOR MUSIC ENTREPRENEURSHIP  DOne REHEARSAL SCHEDULE FOR MUSIC ENTREPRENEURSHIP  DOne ROUTINES FOR ENTREPRENEUR SHIP - FILM PREP - AUDIOS PREPPED THINGS LIKE THAT -- hair routines  DOne youtube: ...

 Doing the oatmeal mask skin treatment on my skin felt like i lived in luxury. I can hear my dream home calling me waiting on me to sign the papers.  Today is day 2 of my work orientation as a music entrepreneur. STYLING DAY.  i love styling day because i can go off the schedule a bit as i'm prepping for performance. I love that styling day gives me a chance to buy new things and try new looks. Dedicating the whole day to styling makes it more triumphant than just dedicating it to filming even though i do photoshoot and film on styling day. Styling day is an inner navigator reminding me that this journey is at its a core a self journey in exploration and development of my self expression through style.  On styling day i plan to keep perfecting my routines around styling and self care. I LOVE STYLING having its own day because it inspires me to slow down and enjoy the process.  I can feel myself walking through the portal on the otherside of this is my dream home...

 i AM NOW IN MY DREAM RELATIONSHIP IN MY DREAM HOME  WEDNESDAYS. WE EDIT  i WAKE UP and I open a window shade and see the beautiful outside weather. i AM so grateful that my life is built off my pleasure and erotica. My beautiful natural flow of my day and the abundant outcome of my creative efforts. i feel beautiful in this moment, seen, cherished, sexy and sensual,  i look at myself in the mirror i practice my twerk.. i might watch a hottie and then look at myself and do what she doing too ...and do it in the mirror i get up most days rise early and i fuck.  i enjoy being the source of pleasure and i enjoy my life.  I then take a shower and start my Wednesdays prepping for what filming I will be doing. I organize my makeup into a bag and I put it with my clothes that i have prepped through my routines. I have a delightful morning with my daughter and my partner getting ready for the day. We eat and pack our bags. I drop my daughter off and then my husband...