Self Love disguised as Self Hate






I had so much pride to say that i had self hate back then. But then I calculated it....
self distrust... feeling sad for my naive mistakes in the past,
self denial by not believing i could get what i want,
self rejection in not feeling good enough for anyone or anything,
and self sacrifice in shrinking myself to others understanding...
all of this sums up to self hate.
these tears that I cry are me returning back to self love. The TRUTH ❤

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