Day 2 - big back tears

 

The process of losing weight is such a spiritual experience. This work out has humbled me. But it has also changed the game. I feel more capable of holding in my gut after doing this in one session.

Scared to be skinny. Why am I so scared? 

Do I look at the world through a scornful eye? Am I being truth? 

This is me this is my fault. But what did I do? 

I’m filled with blame and guilt. I want life to be fun. But what is fun ? If it’s watching every thing be done? 

I am afraid of that world. The world with the new me. 

I must be comfortable here being a piece of shit

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